Lonely with a side of braun ala brain.

Last night I hugged myself to sleep. Now to the outside world this would seem like a very lonely activity - and yes indeed I am slightly alone having no partner to account for, however I am working on that - but consider simply, that it was comfy. I know I am indeed ever hopeful to fill a void, and maybe subconsciously this was a way in which to do so. However, I was genuinely comfy, and so I am just wondering at what point does your subconscious start playing an active role? Granted I'm sure we can test it with a variety of head apparatus, but I'm not so sure I'd be all that comfy then, therefore changing the environment and essential nulling the validity of the test in itself. Society - that loving, wholesome place that we live in - will always point to it as some sort of loneliness, something wrong, a weakness. We are so degradatory en masse against our own species, its hard to see how we have made it so far other than via the simplicity of 'the strong shall prevail'.
Now, I want to be stronger. Not by much, just as a warning. I'm an avid gamer, biker, filmaholic, bookworm and I do like to think, I'm generally of a fair intelligence (I acknowledge any, if not all of these blog posts could count as evidence against this portrayal). However being 6 foot 1, athletic, I think I could be more. I'm not saying I'm heading for the tops of everything, what I'm trying to suggest is I could help with the conveyance of equality in society. Why is it so often our brutus maximus friend is pitted against our fellow four-eyed physician? We all have so much in common, I hate hearing about inequality, and yet this is often such an easy thing to elevate ourselves above, and onto better pastures. Mental and physical strength I see so often as clashing entities, and granted, some people just want to watch the world burn (oh yes Alfred, we know), but a simple understanding of each other can lead to a much brighter future.
Anyway this blog was too bright and wholesome, so go fuck yourself San Diego, and have a shitty morning.